The air filled with a sound like someone had stepped on broken glass as John unpeeled himself from the frozen lawn. Even his tongue had been welded to the roof of his mouth.
He tried to make sense of his surroundings and wondered how far he had left to go. His basher was well out of town for obvious reasons, but the journey this far was a blank and he certainly didn’t remember lying down.
‘Must have fallen over, hit my head,’ muttered John under his breath as he tucked one of his crutches further under an armpit.
There had to be at least a dog end in his pockets; anything to take his mind off the thumping in his head. John examined the scar on his stomach and wondered how bad he’d made it now. If he’d limped this far, he’d probably torn a stitch or two.
‘Only supposed to be a little drink. Might as well be dead if I can’t do that.’
No surprise he’d ended up waking up with his face welded to a lawn though. These days he’d probably be floored by a half a pint the amount of meds he had to take. A memory surfaced, slow and rotten. There’d been an argument hadn’t there? He looked round and spotted the culprit. A kick sent the empty bottle spinning into the trees, ‘Least I had the balls to fight for my country. I deserve a bit more than fuck all for that.’
The thought made him sit down his breath pluming around him him, phosphor white in the night air. The break up had been a bad one, although he supposed the hospital’s staff had seen it all before.
‘She’s going to keep the lot.’
John gazed waited for his surroundings to swim into focus. He should start trying to work out how to get back.
‘The cold’ll be the death of you son you don’t get a move on… the derelict?’
But if the cops found him at the old place again they were going to want more than a word. He dragged himself to his feet, swearing as he did so and tried to massage the needles away.
‘Those weren’t here last time.’
The building’s empty windows gleamed like mirrors. Someone had covered its windows with that Psytex stuff they used when they really didn’t want anyone to get in. It must have been too much for him last night or he’d have found a way regardless. After all he’d had plenty of practice since the wife sent him packing. John clambered to his feet, brushing frost from his clothes. Where he’d lain looked like one of those outlines from a crime scene, nearly had been too.
His shiver took a long time to stop.
‘Bitch could have murdered me, not letting me come home. All I wanted to see the kids.’
He made himself quieten down, at least the hospital had been understanding. The last time he’d visited his ex he’d woken up in reception. That didn’t seem like a bad idea right now. At least it would be warm. John tried to remember whether it had said it would snow on the radio. There was no way he was risking the lanes this time of night.
Besides…he glanced at what was left in the bottle. He had booze and the veranda wasn’t boarded off. He could sleep in the furnishings someone had left outside. He’d been through worse; John headed for the steps.
‘Just keep a lid on it, anyone notices you’re here again and they’ll haul you in for sure, all smiles, and I’m your new best friend. You know how it works; before long they’ll have your record. It’ll be an institution this time.’
The bottle travelled to his lips. That’s where they got to you, voices from the walls, hidden commands to break you. He knew all about those sort of games.
‘I’m better off staying here.’
At least in Kent, there were no friends with wounds for faces and guts in their laps. He’d had enough of that on his last tour.
‘Got one of them though didn’t we?’
The look on the Taliban’s face when he’d seen what the squad had done to his friends almost made up for the wounded. John could still hear the flies even from the other side of Asia.
John’s eyes unfocused as he looked at somewhere far beyond the forest whose edge he’d slept on.
He didn’t even notice the stranger at first. There weren’t many people this far from town, and the kid standing amongst the bushes wasn’t moving.
‘What you doing spying on me?’
John put the bottle down and looked at them from the corner of his eye like he’d been taught. When they stepped from the trees, he wished he’d kept his mouth shut. Youth’s were the ones you worried about. He’d yet to meet one that knew anything about respect. When he told them about what he’d done for them in the forces they just laughed and called him a liar.
‘Haven’t you got a home to go too?’
But John kept his voice reasonable. He’d no desire to antagonise the little fucker.
‘Not at the minute, shouldn’t be long though now I’ve found you, John.’
John shrugged, he wanted nothing to do with whatever schemes the kid was up too.
‘What d’you want then, directions? Towns that way…’
John waved vaguely in the direction of a few lights on the horizon and wondered how the lad had got here. There wasn’t even a path behind him; only old earthworks and leafless winter trees.
‘You’ve got something I want.’
John laughed, ‘I haven’t got a pot to piss in.’
‘I wouldn’t be so sure of that.’
John’s teeth were chattering so badly it was getting difficult to get them to stop and every step the child took brought the cold crawling deeper into John’s bones. He didn’t move right either. It was like something had latched onto him inside. Whatever it was it looked like ti hadn’t got control of the kids body yet, maybe somehwere deep inside where John couldn’t see he was fighting it. John began to get the feeling that he was glad the kid wasn’t saying much. Right now what he was looking at moved like it was so badly damaged it shouldn’t be moving at all.
‘You Ok kid? You look ill.’
‘Don’t worry about that. You’re going to help me feel much better. Please don’t call me ‘kid’ either. My name’s the Amadan Na Bruidhne, pleased to meet you.’
The kid smiled up at him and John scrambled over the veranda’s boards fast enough to wake the birds in the nearby trees.
Where his eyes should have been was nothing but two empty sockets that went so deep in his head for a moment John was worried he was going to see something move.
It would have gone better if he’d remembered it was winter. John screamed as his feet went from under him and his stitches took the brunt of the impact. But at least he’d put some distance between him and whatever was pretending to be that kid.
‘What are you?’
‘A lost soul John, like yourself. Now be careful, you’ll hurt yourself.’
‘I already have you daft bugger.’ The words came through gritted teeth, ‘They only released me a few days ago.’
John was finding it hard to think. What he could see on the lawn had to be because he was ill; there was no mutilated kid talking to him in the middle of the English countryside with holes for eyes. If he rolled with it, it would go away. It wasn’t like it was the first time this had happened, although his mind normally chose Afghans for the trick.
‘Calm down John. I just want to have a little chat.’ John forced himself to look at it, and breathed a little easer. If you ignored the mutilation it was just a kid; that was all. ‘D’you want to find out what about?’
John gritted his teeth and nodded, ‘Whatever you like.’
‘Good, not broken all the way then, not yet.’
Blood splintered across the child’s teeth as he smiled in return. Whatever was wrong with him it was serious enough to bring gore bubbling between his teeth.
‘Watch who you’re calling broken.
‘Here, take this, it’ll help you relax. You should check your wound too.’
A familiar shape waved in John’s direction, and he thought of the pain in his side and what the Doctors had said. The bottle was in his hands a moment later.
‘You steal this from your Mum?’ But the kid just smiled. John continued, ‘You want something in the house? Go ahead, break in, none of it’s mine, not anymore.’
‘I’m not here for somewhere for that, John.’
‘How do you know my name, anyway?’
You’re treading on my turf; every week you get closer in. But I’d have thought you’d know that. Can’t you feel it? How about now?’
The kid smiled and something twisted deep in John’s guts where the Doctors had done their work.
‘I thought you might,’ said the kid as John screamed, ‘it would be a bad fool that doesn’t know who’s knocking at his Queen’s door.’
‘You’re something I’ve made up in my head again aren’t you?’
‘I’m afraid not John, although I’d like to not be here long before other things take my place.’
The kid looked toward the trees.
‘What the hell are those?’
The shapes crawling across the grass didn’t so much move as stutter and they looked like they were the one’s that should be doing the screaming with every step they took.
‘Interesting choice of words, but my children are just here to watch John, I promise.’
A sigh rippled through their ranks, but John wasn’t paying attention. It wasn’t going to help if he encouraged himself.
‘Listen, mate, it’s a cold night, go sleep somewhere else.’ John clung to what he knew to be real. ‘There’s a hostel in town. It’s late but you might get someone to let you in.’
‘What will you accept for allowing me to stay here instead?’
John thought for a moment; he was tempted to ask for more whisky, but the pain in his side hadn’t got much better with the drink. He needed something a bit more long term.
He gestured at the empty house.
‘Open it up, I can’t do it myself, not anymore. They said I should look after myself, no jumping about,’ he grinned apologetically.
‘What’d you think?’
John took another swig from the bottle; at least his teeth had stopped chattering.
‘Jesus that burns,’ he doubled up with his hands clamped to his side, ‘Do what you want. None of this is mine anymore.’
As far as John was concerned what he had to do was carry on drinking. The kid hadn’t even asked for a swig. Maybe he’d leave if he finished quickly.
‘I’ve a condition attached to that bottle I gave you, John.’
John winced and put the booze against his forehead. He’d been waiting for this. He just wanted the little brat to go away, ‘you should’ve said so before.’
‘Don’t worry; I don’t want it back. I want to play a game with you, that’s all. It’ll pass the time.’
‘Time till what?’
‘Nothing really, just until I can find my way back.’
The kid coughed and spat something onto the veranda’s boards that John fought to keep his eyes off. There were too many worms crawling through the mess.
‘I’ll open the house if you beat me.’
‘Alright, what is it then?’
The child’s smile stretched tight, as he uncurled talons so filthy they could have been made of dirt. But the grid he scratched into the veranda’s boards was familiar.
‘What are you doing?’
‘For what? Chess?’
‘This game’s older than that. You’ll like it; it’s for warriors like you.’
‘A game for warriors? You’ve got your man then. I was in the British Army; the best bloody soldiers in the world. John stopped…his eyes looking at something only he could see. At least I was…they say I haven’t got long.’
‘That’s why you’re perfect.’
The kid’s hands moved faster than he could follow as pebbles clicked into place, ‘You’ve the night to beat me. Do you accept?’
It was a formal challenge like a gauntlet had been laid down.
John shrugged, ‘Why not?’
They were three games in before he realised what was wrong. The lawn and its visitors had been swallowed by the darkness in the corners of his eyes, and so had the house. Even the verandas boards were starting to vanish.
If John could have seen himself, he’d have been even more worried. The fat had been drawn from him with every click of a pebble. When his hands crept out to make a move his fingers shook under skin as thin as paper.
‘The best part of our wager John.’
‘I didn’t bet anything.’
John’s voice quavered mid flow.
‘Oh, you did John, you really did,’ the kid wagged his head, mocking John’s infirmity. ‘Although, of course, if you beat me you walk away with your heart’s desire.’
The Amadan Na Bruidhne gestured at the house and light burnt the shadows from his opponents back. John felt warmth seep into him as laughter reached his ears, ‘Graham? Jane?’
‘Not yet John. You haven’t won,’ said the Amadan Na Bruidhne.
The sounds faded, and John returned his attention to the board. They couldn’t be here, not after everything that had happened.
‘You didn’t say anything about this. What happens if I lose?’
‘John…you already know the answer.’
He tried to rise, to smash his fist into the grinning kids face, but all that happened was he fell back wheezing.
‘You’ve had your drink, now play, John. Or would you prefer my children start early?’
John coughed, his breath struggling through shrunken lungs. When he looked at it he could see spots of blood.
The last of the air inside him sobbed between his teeth as he tried to find the strength to do something, anything.
‘Don’t be like that, John.’
John’s last hope that he was making this all up as he shivered somewhere waiting for dawn vanished. The breath of the things that had crawled from the trees was all round him now so close he could feel it on his cheek.
‘What are you really?’
‘Homeless,’ said the Amadan Na Bruidhne, ‘for now at least until you give me what I need to return, now play.’
The thing hiding in the kids body watched the sack of meat opposite. It was bored already; the stupid formality, performed once a year until it could replace what its Mother had stolen from it grew more dull with every passing century. But, then she hadn’t gotten tired of the punishment yet, every year it was a different organ.
John’s eyes glazed; his lips drawing back as the lights in the house flickered and went out. Finally, his hands fell still.
‘Too bad, John. It was a good game.’
Pebbles rattled as the Amadan took the boards remaining pieces.
‘You did well if its any consolation; you lasted longer than the others.’
Gunner John Mayfield’s gaze never left the board.
‘Stay back, I get first pick remember?’
The Amadan’s children cringed as it stepped between them; plunging its hand into John’s side, digging for what it found there before slipping it into its mouth. It was a miracle the poisen the man swilled on a daily basis hadn’t ruined everything inside him as it felt the wound its Mother had made knit together.
‘You should take more care of yourself John, very stupid. You barely even had time to live.’ The Amadan Na Bruidhne turned to go, ‘Don’t take all of him. He needs to be able to walk.’
The Amadan turned to go, but before it did, the thing wearing a child’s skin stopped at the Woodlands edge and whistled. The last time it had made the mistake of leaving one of its victims above it had returned to find the grave mound destroyed and the dead out numbering the living. Finding its way back to its Mothers court had been difficult to say the least.
Its children drew close as the gates appeared.
‘Good,’ it stretched a hand out on either side and patted the heads of the nearest as they scurried by, ‘he’ll be along later.’
They’d keep the way open for him.
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